Everytime someone walks into your life, someone who you just met at the bar or someone who had been there all along but just decided to wake up now, you build dreams. You think about the possibility of a you and him, of an us. And right when you are feeling all fuzzy inside, you stop yourself.
Why? Because you are scared. You are scared that you'll be disappointed and abandoned yet again. There are just so many questions in your head. Should I call? Should I text? Will he think I'm clingy? Will he think I don't care? Will he reply? Is he ready? Maybe he's not the emotional kinds, maybe he's just figuring it all out. Maybe he likes me but he just needs time.
Ever noticed that in all of these questions or statements, you are thinking about him. What if you aren't ready and what if he is? Everytime you are thinking too much, take the plunge anyway, hit the send button because if he replies, you know he cares and if he doesn't, you know you have to move on.
My friends had been raving about Lena Dunham for the longest time and I was trying to make sense about what is actually so great about her. I picked up her book Not That Kind of a Girl and in just a few pages, I know why Girls these days are all about Lena.
She says you shouldn't be sleeping with anyone who makes you feel like you're invading their space. I think about it. Because why should you be scared to text? Isn't being able to freely talk/text/call an important part of a relationship or whatever it is that you've decided not to name?
There will always be too many questions in your head, you will always be scared of disappointment and abandonment but you'll never be sure of where you are headed if you don't take the plunge.
So, the next time you are scared, stop, breathe and do what your heart says. Because, you may not deserve the best, but you certainly deserve what your heart wants.
Why? Because you are scared. You are scared that you'll be disappointed and abandoned yet again. There are just so many questions in your head. Should I call? Should I text? Will he think I'm clingy? Will he think I don't care? Will he reply? Is he ready? Maybe he's not the emotional kinds, maybe he's just figuring it all out. Maybe he likes me but he just needs time.
Ever noticed that in all of these questions or statements, you are thinking about him. What if you aren't ready and what if he is? Everytime you are thinking too much, take the plunge anyway, hit the send button because if he replies, you know he cares and if he doesn't, you know you have to move on.
My friends had been raving about Lena Dunham for the longest time and I was trying to make sense about what is actually so great about her. I picked up her book Not That Kind of a Girl and in just a few pages, I know why Girls these days are all about Lena.
She says you shouldn't be sleeping with anyone who makes you feel like you're invading their space. I think about it. Because why should you be scared to text? Isn't being able to freely talk/text/call an important part of a relationship or whatever it is that you've decided not to name?
There will always be too many questions in your head, you will always be scared of disappointment and abandonment but you'll never be sure of where you are headed if you don't take the plunge.
So, the next time you are scared, stop, breathe and do what your heart says. Because, you may not deserve the best, but you certainly deserve what your heart wants.
What if he cares too and replies ; but then they get tagged as Cocky !! may be he just wants to give all the attention to you !!
ReplyDeleteI don't think anyone complains when they get attention; Sadly, it's just the lack of it that has us all troubled!
DeleteI doubt people do lack interest in this !! They do !! just the scars make them hide the emotion SS :)
DeleteBeautiful Miss. Love, as they call it the art of emotions. The heart craves for the masterpiece and hence as Mr.LeoVinci said "Art is never finished, it's abandoned". Such is life. We live and leave along side these concepts wanting to realise our true worth of acceptance. True art is selfless. It will prevail. Often selfish, seldom hurtful. Love.Hate. I'd say your writing is vent/reflection of your anxious emotion. Best wishes.
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